first post..
new beginnings.. haha…
i love how wordpress looks like blogger… the words are so huge.. but i hate being unable to customise anything.. but there’s a password protect post… so i guess that’s a perk since i cant do it on my candeeze.org account without mySQL..
mood swings aside.. i’m feeling quite ok.. talked to Zhiyang last night about it.. talked to Aileen and Sheena this morning… i’m really glad i have friends like them… now what i’m hoping is that Christer would have time for me.. at least once a mth i hope… since Jaime has been part of his life since i got attached.. i cant expect things to be back to normal between me and him so quickly… but somehow.. he is always able to make me smile… no matter how simple the words are…
i have great plans for the future… everytime something major happens in my life… i re-evaluate and wonder what the hell was wrong with me for wasting time.. and then i try to get my life back on track.. this time round.. i wonder how long i’d take.. but i hope it’d be fast…
currently my plan is to learn tennis.. most prob starting next week.. i’ve procrastinated long enough.. it’s time to set my sights on things i wanted to do all along… i’m intending to ask bryan to keep a saturday free for me (hopefully joy allows) so that we can go sailing… i haven been sailing for the longest time… it’s time i restart.. i cant even remember how to tie the sail up anymore.. haha..
remember i said i am thinking of hitting melbourne with Sharon? i asked Aileen if pines is hiring..somehow 6bucks per hr doesn’t affect me at all this time round.. i used to work only when i have minimum 7.50bucks.. but pines looks like a nice place to work.. besides its near my sch… i dun mind working part time there.. takes my mind off things anyways and i have extra cash for melbourne.. 2 weeks of solid travelling with Sharon.. then when Aileen comes back from Brisbane.. we may hit Hongkong ( i really hope we will.. go bug ur dad to sponsor k, Ms Tay)… working would be a good experience afterall.. and maybe i can get them to hire me for internship..then i gao dim le… dun have to work thru my stupid summer holidays…
then there’s fencing.. i dunno whether i’d be a regular or not.. but i am trying my best to be.. most prob gonna be skipping this week cos i dun wanna go to ubi area… Christer’s going to malacca… so means i wun have my entertainer around… he used to be my best guy mate… now i’m not too sure.. haha.. but i’ve adopted a new best friend… Neo Zhiyang.. it sounds childish la.. but i just told him he is my new best friend… cos he has been part of my life since months ago… and has always been really cheerful around me… so he got promoted and became my best friend… =)
one more potential neighbour for my estate..
i think mum knows i am upset… just now i asked whether i could buy a dog.. she said she would consider.. will tell me after CNY… that’s how amazing.. she’s how scared of dogs but she actually wanted to consider… i’m really grateful… hopefully i can get a westie… i’ll make sure it eats better food than me…
i remember what Yuxin told me when my rabbit died.. he said something like i treated it really well.. giving it all i can afford…
if i have a dog… i’ll gladly spend 600bucks of my allowance on him.. i wan a him dog.. she dogs will MS.. then pms me how… so hope and pray i can get a doggie… anyone wanna be god parents?
this is pretty long for a first post… i’m fine if u guys are worried abt me.. i know i will be living better than ever soon…i just have to take the first step in picking myself up.. and i know it’s soon..
