so it’s been a year..

strange how a year has passed yet feelings have not quite settled down..

went for my cousin's err prayer session.. i guess u can call it that.. u noe chinese customs.. u have to like sorta burn incense and pray etc.. yup.. it's been a year since he passed away… and to avoid bumping into his paternal relatives.. we went to this place where they had his errr.. tablet.. ya..

my granny weaped at a corner while we started folding the incense papers into a cylindrical sharp pointed shaped object.. i know her pain.. i feel her pain.. but somehow.. i just hadda look away..

somehow the reality has not really hit me… i guess it'd only come when i have to visit his grave at mandai.. i din even get to see a photo of him today.. maybe that's how i scrapped thru the event..

yeah so i'm fine.. but something else creaped me out.. there's this family who approached us and offered to help us fold a lotus thing.. then as they folded it.. the mother was teaching the kids to chant and stuff.. that kinda freaked me out.. it's like i felt uneasy.. i dunno why but i just din wanna look kind.. after the entire thing i din even bother thanking them or wat.. i just left… i think now i know why non-christians get freaked out in a church sometimes.. haha..

damn tired now.. so it's nap time!

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